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    9/17/2009

    继续写space吧

    不到十分低落的时候
    我是不会来这儿写东西的
    好吧，我现在很烦躁很郁闷..
     
    一直以来，我都在寻找什么是安全感
    我有一个寝室，住着两个室友
    我有现金有信用卡有值得期待的每个月的补助
    我有手机有网络有硬盘里无数的备份
    我还有各种各样的朋友
    能陪我吃饭的陪我喝酒的陪我踢球打球的陪我打牌的陪我灌水的陪我骂街的..
    也有静悄悄的坐着看着我发飙的..
    我很满足
    我可以不去听党课不去实验室不去理会那些学术的东西
    我可以不用操心父母的各种事情因为他们过得很舒坦很安详
    我自己的小日子过得安安稳稳但是又不乏七彩的波澜
    我觉得我很安全
    受到伤害的时候我可以肆无忌惮的发泄
    落单的时候总会找到一个懂我的人陪我
    无聊的时候也总有人跟我说话听我一遍一遍的抱怨生活
    变故？我一点都不担心
    未来？我也一点都不着急去考虑
     
    可是今天，突然情况就不一样了
    也许是我神经太过敏
    或者自己本来就是这个样子
    事情的起因无比的简单：
    我身上没有现金了
    而且有一段时间内我要保持这样的状态
    然后周围的一切就变了样..
    有人开始变得不那么友好
    手头的事情也变得越来越让人心烦
    窗外的鸟叫都是那么的难听
    匆匆挂掉妈妈的电话
    一点都没提自己缺钱的事情
    我这样的性格是断然不会借钱的
    于是只能自力更生了
    然后更深的恐惧翩翩而至
    N久没更新的无比单薄的简历
    使劲儿的加也加不上一点值得看的色彩
    又想到看似遥远实则触手可及的未来
    天呢，整个世界都要崩溃了
    我闭上眼睛，仿佛末日即将来临..
     
    我很变态
    这么点事情就让我如此紧张如此六神无主
    但这却很真实
    我始终在逃避的东西终究会来临
    我还能逃脱么？
     
     
     
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    Pengxiang Wangwrote:
    To m：
    嗯，想想过阵子那个红艳艳的大十字就心寒,,我给自己的心理暗示太强了
    Sept. 17
    Pengxiang Wangwrote:
    To 姐姐：
    抽风，过阵子就好了..失眠了一晚上，现在都不觉得困..
    Sept. 17
    Haotian Liuwrote:
    @@
    Sept. 17
    薇 黄wrote:
    没事，一个月总有那么几天，哈哈哈
    Sept. 17
    Sonny Gaowrote:
    刚开始找工作的时候也是这种感觉哎......
    慢慢就好了~~bless~~~
    Sept. 17
    Sophia Wangwrote:
    你怎么了啊。。。真是没有安全感的小孩呀。。。
    Sept. 17
    yukiwrote:
    pat..bless... you'll be fine...
    Sept. 17

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